Giving Thanks

17 11 2013

Lately, I’ve been finding it really hard to find things I’m thankful for.

basilica view twoI don’t know why this has always been an issue for me, but in really hard times, it seems that only the negative things come to mind when I think about how my life is going as opposed as to the [arguably] many more good things that I have going on.

These past two weeks have been no different. Anything that could have gone wrong did. From camera concerns to friend fights and a whole lot of hurtful comments in between, it’s been hard for me to find the good in my life and in myself.

Tonight, I was walking home from re-editing a project. It had been raining so [obviously] I had my rain jacket on. I was listening to music trying to be happy. Once I got back to my apartment, I got on the elevator and looked down, only to see the tiny rip in the sleeve of my [very expensive] rain jacket. For half a second, I got so mad at not anyone in particular about that tiny rip.

That is until I remembered how I got it.

Picture it: March 2013. It is a rainy, humid day in Rome and I am backpacking for the first time to see the sites. I’m enthralled, to say the least. I get onto the escalator to take me down to the subway …and my jacket gets caught in the escalator. Bad luck, especially since it was my first time wearing it. 10 news hH

I got the rip in Rome. In Italy. And then I realized how lucky I am.

It isn’t just because I’ve gotten to travel around. Even though that is amazing experiences I wouldn’t trade for the world, I have something much more valuable.

Passion.

I am so passionate about journalism. I love it. I can’t picture myself doing anything else like it and enjoying myself for the rest of my life. I love taking a camera, a mic and a tripod, going out and telling people’s stories. Doing stand-ups. Shooting b-roll. I love it. I am so blessed to have something that I am so passionate about that it can make the rest of the world seem not as important. As evident by today, since I spent the entire day in Target coming up with ideas and filming stand-ups with Evan at WBIR.
I’m going to try and remember that through the next couple of weeks that will probably be just as stressful.